What does God have planned for us?

This has been one heck of a roller coaster ride. Shannon and I have had so many up and downs it's overwhelming. Our 2nd IUI has failed, but we are going to continue with procedure as long as we can. Our current insurance provider allows for IUI, but NOT for IVF. IVF is our best chance of getting pregnant, but our current insurance provider does not allow for it. Currently Arkansas, Hawaii, Illinois, Maryland, Massachusetts, Montana, New Jersey, New York, Ohio, Rhode Island, and West Virgina are currently the only states that mandate insurance companies cover IVF.

The current price tag, a whopping $20,000, is what we are facing if we have to pay that on our own. And what if it doesn't work? How many times do we keep trying? Do we have to move to another state to get insurance to cover it?

Shannon and I have asked ourselves what does God want from us? Are we being taught a lesson? Are we just not meant to have children? What is his plan for us?

Shannon and I were fortunate to see a young man named Nick Vujicic talk at our church. Nick was born without limbs. He has no arms or legs. Nick talked about growing up with the constant thought of, "Why has God done this to me?" One day Nick realized he had a mission and that his mission was to help others. To tell his story. To show if you think things are bad try not having any arms or legs. One of my favorite stories from Nick is about the word impossible. That impossible is derived from some being lazy and that the word is actually two words "I'm possible."

For me maybe our path is the same as Nick's...to help others. I do have faith that God will give us a child, but are we meant for something else along the way. Are supposed to adopt a child? Fight for state mandates to have infertility treatments be covered in all states? Start a foundation to help good deserving parents to be pay for IVF and other infertility treatments? Or just tell our story to make more people aware? These are just some of the thoughts I am having and a possible answer to why.

Visit www.lifewithoutlimbs.org to hear more about Nick Vujicic's story.