Resting

Well, my lap was yesterday, and I had to admit that it was super easy, much easier then expected. I was in pain right after surgery, but after some pain killers I was good, when I left the hospital I had no pain. John and I got breakfast and went home, I went right onto the couch and rested all day. I had on and off shoulder pain (which is expected) as well as some pain around my inscision site (inside my belly button) but I took my pain killers every four hours and had a great nights sleep.

Today I was up when John went to work, I again rested on the couch for the majority of the day, I did venture out to Target and to the dry cleaners. I am having a little more shoulder pain today, and some stomach pains, but I am not taking my pain medicine as much, so it could just be that I am taking less medicine therefor feeling more pain.

Our doctor found no endo, but she did make sure my fallopian tubes are open and clear, so that is good, its been awhile since I had my HSG (which is where the shoot dye into your uterus in hopes that it comes out your fallopian tubes) so at least I know everything is cleaned out down there. I am happy that I don't have any endo, endo can be really painful as well as cause a lot of fertility issues. Like I need one more thing to worry about.

So all is well, I am still taking another three days off to rest and recover, tomorrow I am going to venture out for a few more errands and meetings, but I will still take lots of time to rest.

Mixed Emotions

results, Tomorrow is Shannon's laparoscopic surgery. Seems to be a fairly simple procedure and the people I know who have had it say it isn't that bad. No matter how simple it really is it's still surgery.

Any time you have to be put unconscious for something worries me somewhat. So, I do have some concerns about the whole thing as well as looking forward to it in some ways.

Again using anesthesia can be dangerous and couldn't bear for anything bad to happen to Shannon. Also, the people I have talk to say there is some discomfort afterwards so I feel bad for her. My sweetie is a trooper and I thank her for all she has had to go through.

I also don't know how to take the results. On one hand there may be nothing wrong at all. No Endometriosis, no cysts, no nothing. Which could be a could thing and we'll know that there is non-toxic environment in there.

On the other hand I want to know something is wrong so that at least we can fix it and move on. Right now we perfectly fine and simply experiencing unexplained infertility. Maybe if we find something wrong that we can't it can be corrected and it will be smooth sailing from there.

For those of you who read our posts please pray for us. For Shannon's safety as well as us having a baby one day. Thank you!

Friends Having Babies...There is Hope for us Yet.

Our good friends had their second child yesterday. They have had their share of infertility issues, but never really pursued any medical treatment. And haven't endured any of the drugs, shots, blood taking or doctor appointments. But it has taken them 8 years to have 2 children.

John and I have been friends since elementary school and grew up in the same neighborhood. Sometimes, I wonder if there is something in the water here in Las Vegas or it's just this town causing infertility. I know the facts about infertility, but sometimes you wonder is their something going on? Just like cancer. I know so many people going through that it's like what's up?

My Friend John is the same age as me, but he started trying having kids a lot sooner. Although, they had trying times like us he had a little more time.

I guess I worry that I will be too old to play with our kids or won't see them graduate or get married or have children of their own. But that doesn't mean we quit trying or give up hope.

We have had more than one friend recently get pregnant, who have been having infertility issues too, which gives such a great sense of hope. I believe if someone else can do it so can we. Our turn is next.

The Secret Millioniare.

Shannon and I have been enjoying watching the Secret Millionaire the past couple of weeks on FOX. Millionaires pose as unemployed homeless people in attempt to find good people who help others. The millionaires then determine who they feel has the most to offer others and intern the millionaires help them by giving at least a $100,000.

I think it would be great to do the same thing for couples having infertility issues. Not that we can just give them a baby, but we could give them the money to get infertility treatments like IUI or IVF or to even help them with the costs associated with adoptions.

The worry, stress, disappointment and obsession is bad enough without having the helpless feeling of not being able to afford infertility treatments or adopting a child. I would love the ability to just write a check for these things and help others going through what we are.

Inspirational Quote of Hope December 12, 2008

"The man who wins may have been counted out several times, but he didn't hear the referee. Never quit or give up...never...give up."- H.E. Janson

Inspirational Quote of Hope December 8, 2008

"Never give up, Never give in, and when the upper hand is ours, may we have the ability to handle the win with the dignity that we absorbed the loss."- Doug Williams

A Day of Tears... :-(

Last night night I watched Shannon dance herself silly and having such a great time at the Christmas party we were at last night. We slowed danced through a few songs and I felt so much love towards her. I watched litle girls have a great time as well and envisioned a daughter of our own one day doing the same. But last night that dream came to halt...again.

Todat was a day of tears, as was last night, for both of us. Shannnon had had her period. The pain, the dissapointment, the sadness was the worst yet as another IUI attempt failed. Why is this happening to us? What does God want us to do? Why do we keep having to endure this agony? It kills me to see Shannon so sad. What do we do? Give up? No, the show must go on at all costs. If anyone cares to share your feeling on this please share with us what you are experiencing.

Getting pregnant #5

This video discusses some of the options for couples experiencing infertility. It is also exactly the options we are going through right now.

Inspirational Quote of Hope December 7, 2008

"Never let your head hang down. NEVER GIVE UP AND SIT DOWN AND GRIEVE. Find another way."- Satchel Paige