Tis the season!

Well, last night we put up our Christmas tree and I got a good start on putting up the holiday decorations around the house. I love this time year, I have always been a XMAS nut! The more decorations the better. This year its kinda bitter sweet, we just celebrated Thanksgiving with John's family, who all have kids, we have kids ranging from 9 years old to 6 months old in our family. Its very true that kids make the holidays better. I hope and pray that this is our last holiday's with just us, I would have to have a newborn next year at this time, I would even take just being pregnant around the holidays next year. I just do not know how much more my heart can take.
I am trying to not let it comsume me, but its hard, I feel like getting pregnant would take a huge weight off my shoulders, I really forget what its like to not be worried about this.

Happy Thanksgiving!

May everyone have a blessed holiday. Let's all remember what we are thankful for.

Runaway follicle!

Today I went back to have another ultrasound- and I have 4 follicles growing strong. But if you remember I have 5 2 days ago, so I guess one got scared and ran away! No, that happens sometimes, it may have just not been mature, or it was not developing right. The doctor said it may catch up and reappear when I go back on Monday. So I have another ultrasound on Monday and hopefully the IUI on Wednesday, right before my Thanksgiving. My little turkey baby! How I would love to get pregnant on the most wonderful day of the year. I love Thanksgiving, and I am really trying to be thankful for everything I do have in my life, but to have a little one next Thanksgiving would be the best thing ever!

I want to take a minute to send out congratulations to my fellow nestie, Rachel, she gave birth to her son on Saturday! He is happy and healthy. This is one girl that has been through the ringer. They have had two failed adoptions and finally did it with IVF, it only took then 22 cycles! I am so happy for her and her husband. She sent out a video showing her son's birth, we were all in tears! Welcome to the world baby Brighton!

Inspirational Quote of Hope November 13, 2008

"To eat bread without hope is still slowly to starve to death." - Pearl S Buck

Hopes, Thanks, and Prayers

Hi folks, John here. Another month and still not pregnant. I am guy and guys normally don't admit to this, but I do cry. I have cried so much lately. I don't think I've cried so much in my life. I really don't know where all the tears are coming from. I am just so disappointed. But I have everlasting hope and faith that God will allow us to have what a hearts truly desire...a baby.

I want to take a moment and thank my wife for riding this roller coaster with me. For all the doctor visits, shots, medication, and heartbreak she has had to endure. This one ride, unlike our favorite Big Thunder Mountain at Disneyland, isn't all that fun. But I will continue to ride this up and down crazy ride with you as long as it takes. Until the empty room in our house, which is patiently waiting, is filled with what we are longing for. I love you!

I also pray for Dr's Eva Littman and Sharon Roth. Who do everything in their medical power to help us reach our goal. I also pray for everyone who is going through the same thing we are. Your day will one day come too. I pray that one day all insurances will pay for infertility treatments and more medical break throughs will help couples who truly want to be parents one day become them.

Inspirational Quote of Hope November 12, 2008

"Hope is the companion of power, and mother of success; for who so hopes strongly has within him the gift of miracles."- Samuel Smiles

Inspirational Quote of Hope November 11, 2008

"Learn from yesterday, live for today, hope for tomorrow. The important thing is not to stop questioning."- Albert Einstein

Inspirational Quote of Hope November 5, 2008

"We should not let our fears hold us back from pursuing our hopes." John Fitzgerald Kennedy

Inspirational Quote of Hope November 1, 2008

"Never deprive someone of hope...it may be all they have." anonymous

Follistim Day 3

Today was a good day! No strange side effects, I go to the doctor tomorrow for my first ultrasound to check and see how I am progressing.

Busy at work, but nothing that I cant handle, at least it keeps me occupied and I have less time to think about other things.

Talked to my mom tonight, she asked me about coming home for Thanksgiving. In a way I would love to go there and see everyone, but I hate flying, epically during the holidays, its such a pain in the butt! And if we are onto another IUI then I have to think about when the insemination would be. So its official, my life revolves around my ovaries! Who would have thought!

I'm really tired, off to bed, I have to be at the doctors office bright and early!