If at first you don't concieve, TRY TRY AGAIN!

That was the tagline for the new season of Bill and Guiliana, which premiered last night on the Style network. It was a great episode, these two are so cute and funny to watch- they really have a great relationship. The season opens with Guiliana taking a home pregnancy test, which turns out to be negative.

She was so disappointed- she said she felt she was really pregnant and this really makes her want to have a baby even more. I have been there, done that, have that T-shirt! While watching that scene all the memories of disappointment came flooding back to me. When you see that one line on that stick or the words "Not Pregnant" it is crushing! Gotta love the phantom symptoms, I swear I had morning sickness every month, and I would have put money on the fact that I was pregnant, but nope not that month!

Guilana makes a comment about how she never wanted kids, and how she spent tons of money preventing pregnancy and now it's all different. That was me, never wanted kids, always thought I was too selfish- and kids always hated me. I think about all the money I could have saved on birth control!!

I am really interested to see where this season goes- they obviously want a family and it's been a tougher road then they thought it would be to conceive. Everything thinks you decide to have a baby and bam next month you get pregnant. Well, okay some people have that happen, but not most!

I think we are going to see them go through the initial fertility testing- and then come to a crossroad- maybe everything is fine and they just need more time- or maybe they will find something. I love that they are being so open about this. Infertility is something that one out of ever six couples will struggle with and needs to get more media attention.

The Rancic's Season 2

The Rancic's are back and it's better than ever for season two! From the previews it looks like season two will focus on Guiliana and Bill trying to get pregnant. There are several scene's are the doctor's office and then poor Guiliana having a negative pregnancy test. Having been there and done that I cannot help but wonder if the Rancic's are infertile? Guiliana is 36 years old, so her clock is ticking- and Bill is 38 so they need to get moving if they are going to have kids. They have been married for over two years so if they have been trying since they got married they meet the definition of infertility- no success after one year of trying.

I hope they have kids- I do not wish this journey on anyone, and they would make such cute babies- they are both so attractive. I am so looking forward to season two which premieres in January 2010.

This takes "just go on vacation" to a new level!

I can understand the idea of a babymoon, a vacation taken right before a new baby is born. Enjoying one last (for a while anyway) trip before your life becomes a crazy blur of diapers and late-night feedings almost seems medically necessary. But taking a vacation with the sole purpose of getting knocked up - a procreation vacation - well, that sounds a little too "desperate marketing ploy" to me. Can't people just have sex at home? Or just go on a trip and say "We're gonna go on vacation, have a lot of sex, and see what happens" without making pregnancy the objective? Apparently, the Westin hopes not.

The Westin Resort on Aruba wants couples looking to take their own procreation vacation to book a stay this fall. The Resort is offering a $300 credit, to be used on on a future visit, to any couple that conceives while staying at the resort between September 1 and December 19. During that time, the Resort's "Classic Package" is $399 per night for two and includes all meals and drinks, including alcohol. Guests who book by September 30 will also receive a $100 Resort Credit.

It's an attention-getting promotion, but I doubt many couples will be able to collect. Getting pregnant seems like a crap shoot that requires the perfect storm of several factors. No matter how much sex a couple has over the course of their stay, the odds that the woman will happen to be ovulating and get pregnant within that time frame are slim. But if it does happen, the couple just needs to provide a doctor's note confirming that conception was on or around the dates of their stay, and they'll receive the $300 credit. For those who do receive a visit from the stork, I suppose it's a nice incentive to return to the Westin for the first post-baby vacation.

WOW!! Seriously this takes baby making to a new level, hell it's a lot less then IVF! Maybe we should try it, although if I had a quarter for every time someone told me to relax or go on vacation and I would get pregnant I would have enough money to buy the Westin!

Starting to feel more human!

Well, its been a rough week and a half- we have been dealing with our failed IVF cycle the past few days, and I am finally starting to feel more normal. Its been a rough few days, I have cried, been angry and be down right irrational. I actually had a moment a few days ago where I actually screamed "I want my babies back!"
I feel like I have lost so much. Not only did I loose a baby almost two years ago to a miscarriage, but I had 6 embryos that didn't make it in my uterus.

I know that I cannot go through life thinking about my embryos that didn't make it, but wow it really hurts to think that I had fertilized eggs in me and they didn't turn into a baby.

John and I have done some talking and we are going to make some changes with our baby making. But that will have to be it's own entry.

Its amazing it take so much time to go through the IVF process and only one day to shatter your dreams when the pregnancy test comes back negative. I feel like I have let everyone down- everyone knew about our IVF and everyone was thinking it was a done deal that we would get pregnant. So god help me our next IVF NO ONE is going to know- I do not want to tell anyone. I do not need the pressure of others. I know that people are just trying to be supportive, but its hard, because they don't know what this feels like.

Tomorrow is the big day!

Beta day that is, or AKA the pregnancy test. I am eerily calm, I have not tested and do not plan on it. I feel fine, I have no real symptoms- I have had some cramping, but cramping is normal in early pregnancy and before you get your period. So here we go, I am prepared for both outcomes- and I think I have prepared John for both outcomes.
Cross your fingers for us! Please God, let this be our miracle!