Friday, December 10, 2010


Monday, December 6, 2010

Bill and Guiliana moving forwards!

Every week my husband and I tune into Bill and Guiliana on The Style Network, and this week as usual did not disappoint. I have said it so many times, but I just LOVE them! They are so cute together and are just a great couple.

I have to say kudos to Bill for that ring he got Guiliana, it was amazing! I told John I expect that at our next anniversary!

In this episode Guiliana and Bill have decided to move forward and do a second round of IVF, and she also had to break to news of her miscarriage to the public. As I was watching this episode I was holding my perfect 11 month old daughter in my arms, and I could not help but tear up.

IVF and infertility is so hard to go through in private, I cannot imagine going through it in the public eye- my heart just goes out to them as we have been there done that. Guiliana was telling Bill how going through this has made them a closer couple and that God has a plan and this is all happening for a reason.

I told myself that for years, but I remember sitting in my bed praying that I would get pregnant and for God to bless us with a child, then I would cry and cry and ask God, why was this happening to us, what had we done that was so bad that we deserved all this heartache? Now looking back it all makes sense. Nothing was meant to work, because we had to wait for our little angel to be born and to come into our lives. Even writing this I am fighting back the tears, because now I know she was meant to be ours, we just had to wait for her, and it was all worth it- every tear, every heart break, every minute was worth it.

Thursday, December 2, 2010

We are ready to party!!

With monkey's first birthday party just around the corner, 10 days, but who's counting?! I am in full psycho stressed out mode! I am also dealing with getting everything ready for the holidays, and we have a jam packed schedule the next few weeks. I managed to get everything done and ordered- so now I have a few odds and ends to tie up for the party- but other then that we are ready to rock and roll.

I know we went overboard with this party- but honestly I don't care- we have waited so long to be able to celebrate our child's birthday and we are doing it in a big way. There were so many days that I thought I would never get to experience any of this- so I am treasuring each and every minute of it.

As if having a first birthday party, the holidays and preparing for my parents arrival to Vegas was not enough for this month- add in two court dates for our adoption, like we don't have enough going on. But these are BIG court dates- it's our TPR (termination of parental rights) hearing. That's right folks- we are very confident as is our case worker, that all parental ties to monkey's birth parents will be severed in less then 2 weeks, and then she is unofficially ours- we still have to finalize her adoption. So keep us in your thoughts and prayers as we are hoping to have even more to celebrate this Christmas.

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

Loving the Rancic's this season!

Bill and Guiliana Rancic's third season debuted last week with a very emotional episode which walks us through their first round of IVF- in the end it was successful, but as we know sadly her pregnancy will end around 9 weeks. The second episode of this season follows the Rancic's on the quest to find the perfect "family" house in Chicago suburbs.

It was a great episode, they are just so cute together. I have to admit after watching 2 seasons of them on their show the more and more I think Bill is John's long lost brother. They are SO much a like- both Croatian, both love real estate and finance, and both are somewhat conservative.
They also both have the same taste in women- I relate so well to Guiliana- she is outgoing, energetic, loves celebrity gossip (she works for E! News and has my dream job, by the way!) and is a total shopaholic.

This episode also follows the Rancic's while they are dealing with getting their estate planning in order, forming a trust and a living will. This is all stuff that John and I did about 2 years ago, and it's hard- you have to make some tough decisions about what happens to your things, and your children in the event of your death. Bill decided this was a good time to bring up the dreaded word to Guiliana "BUDGET". Guiliana did not take it so well, she said "budget,what's that?" I was laughing so hard at this point, because that's John in a financial conversation with me, I'm like "what budget, there is no budget". Gulinana then went on to say how her new leather jacket was a necessity- I know I have said that exact sentence to John at some point. John and I were laughing so hard- and John was just shaking his head going "see I told you!"

Bill went into how it's important to save and be financially secure for your children, but Guiliana was more worried about how she looks in her new leather jacket that she is modeling for Bill. In the end she agreed to the budget, which is where I am at with then entire thing- I just fold and will give in. I know John is right, and it's all for our future- but come on how can you pass up a sale!?

Overall it was a great episode, it really hit home for me, not only with the infertility and the IVF and all that stuff, but the other "daily" stuff that happens in a marriage and all the hurdles that you have to overcome to be a successful couple in life and in your marriage. Don't forgot to tune in next Monday Style Network 8pm.

Tuesday, October 5, 2010

A Bill and Guiliana Rancic Update

Bill and Guiliana Rancic opened up to the ladies of The View about their recent IVF. Now I have been impatiently waiting for their pregnancy announcement. Sadly, their first IVF ended in miscarriage. It is discussed in this weeks People Magazine, but you can see their heart breaking interview below. This breaks my heart, I know what they are going through and how hard of a journey infertility is. I just love them, I know they will be great parents when the time is right.




Wednesday, September 29, 2010

9 Month Stats!

I have been a really bad blogger lately, but with a child who loves the laptop it's hard to get anything done on the computer! We had our 9 month checkup yesterday, and my little monkey is not so little anymore. She is growing by leaps and bounds, our pediatrician is very happy with her weight gain, she is just little, which is fine with me- maybe she will be a gymnast! Here are our 9 month stats:

- 17 lbs- 35th percentile
- 27 inches long- 30th percentile
- Still wearing a size 3 diaper
- Pulling herself up on EVERYTHING!
- Cruising around with the help of our furniture
- Loves remotes, iPhones, and boxes
- Loves shoes! That's my girl!
- Loves her little piano
- Eating 3-4 8 oz bottles a day
- Eats 3 solid meals a day
- LOVES yogurt
- Really getting the hang of her sippy cup
- Says " Ma Ma" and " Ba Ba"- no "Da Da" yet- much to John's dismay!

I will say she sleeps like a champ- 10 hours all through the night- we love sleep at our house! We flew back east a few weeks ago, and she did great- slept the entire way (there and back) and it was a 4 hours plane ride! I have a feeling she will be a good traveler, good thing, because we love to travel.

Next up in our house- getting ready for Halloween, she is going to be a cupcake- it's the cutest little outfit! We are planning a trip to Disneyland over Thanksgiving weekend- we can't wait to introduce our little monkey to Disney- we LOVE Disney!! Then we have Christmas and her first birthday. I am already in full out party mode- poor John- he just says " tell me when to show up". Oh, and yes it's a monkey theme, because she's our little monkey!

My parents are coming out for Christmas, it will be great to see them again and have them here to share our first Christmas as a family! We are also planning a vacation to Los Cabos in March 2011- so that will be fun!

Monday, August 16, 2010

Baby Stats!

Thought I would give an update about our little monkey. She is growing by leaps and bounds, she is just about 7 1/2 months old. I cannot believe how time flies!
Here are her basic stats

- Wearing a size 3 diaper
- Wearing some 6-9 month clothes, some 9 month clothes- depending on the brand!
- Eating like a horse- has between 4 and 5 8 oz. bottles a day
- Eating 3 solid meals a day, oatmeal and fruit in the morning, fruit snack in the afternoon, and a veggie and fruit in the evening.
- We are not a big fan of veggies right now- I have to disguise them with lots of fruits to cover up the taste!
- Will kinda eat puffs, she isn't quite sure what to do with them, so she picks them up and they end up all over her high chair.
- Naps are short, no more 2 hour naps- she wants to be up and around.
- Is crawling like a champ and pulling herself up.
- The babbling has not really started yet, it's more like loud high pitched noises right now, but we respond to them anyways!
- LOVES her jumperoo
- Not a big fan of the infant car seat- I think it's almost time to move into her big girl convertible car seat.

So pretty much our little monkey is growing like a champ- she weighs around 17 lbs, and still has her cute chubby cheeks!

Thursday, August 5, 2010

Happy Anniversary! Wedding that is!

Today is mine and John's anniversary, four years ago we were getting married. It's amazing to think that four years have gone by in the blink of an eye. This is the first year that I feel good about celebrating a year of marriage. First off infertility takes a toll on a marriage, so to have made it through four years of that is something to celebrate! Marriage is hard enough, add infertility on top of that and you have a lot to deal with, but John and I have managed to get through it, with some fights, tears, and hugs along the way. Now that we have our beautiful little girl we can look back and say it was all worth it, and I don't think either one of us would change the path of the last four years. It has brought us to where were are now and we are both better people for having traveled that road together.

I was thinking today about where I was on this day four years ago, it's about 4pm so I was getting ready to start our pictures with our photographer. I was laughing with my mom, oh how I miss her and can't wait to see her soon, and thinking I never thought this day would get here, but it did, and all the days since then have flown by. I have to remember to take in each day and remember that I will never get to do it again, my baby will not be a baby forever, so I have to cherish every moment with her and our moments as a family.