I am offically a lunatic!

Yes people I have offically lost my mind. I just feel so detached to reality right now. My entire world right now is about IVF and getting pregnant. Please God promise I will have a life again one day!?

It's so hard for me to concentrate on other things in my life, because I still have to function and get things done for other people, when I really just want to look at them and say, "f*** you, can you call me back after I'm pregnant, because right now I really don't give a rats ass about you and your problems!" Yes, I know CRAZY! But I can't help it, I guess I just feel that my life is so much more important that others right now. To me, trying to get pregnant with IVF is so much bigger that whatever people could be complaining about.

Today I had to go get more blood drawn at Quest, no biggie, I really could care less about getting my blood drawn. So I am sitting in the chair and the nurse goes, "I'm really sorry I have to take 2 tubes of blood" I looked and her and said, "that's nothing, I'm used to 10 or 12 tubes" and she looked at me like I was crazy. I explained that with IVF and fertility treatments I am used to it. Then she asked, "what is IVF?" I almost fell out of my seat! Serioulsy people read a book- please try and educate yourself. She's a nurse for goodness sake!

So that was my day, I am glad it's over and almost time for the weekend!
Only 3 more weeks of peace then the shots start! I am nervous, in a way I feel like I should wait another month, but then I think why would I wait? Go for it. Please God let this be our miracle, we are so ready to be parents, please bring us our baby.

Baseline = Starting Line

Ready. . . . Set. . . . Go. . . .

Today was the ever important baseline ultrasound and bloodwork and I am happy to report that I passed with flying colors. My ultrasound showed about 11 follicles and my lining was nice and thin, just the way they like it, and no cysts! My doctor said she is expecting around 12 eggs, which is average, and she said that I should be very happy about that. All my bloodwork looked great! They have to make sure that your estrogen is very low and that your body is absorbing the Lurpon so you don't ovulate until the doctor wants you to. So everything looked great, and my FSH was 3.5, that is the lowest it has ever been. So hopefully that means that my eggs will be great quality and make great embroyos. FSH is a basic bloodtest that is done on day 3 of a cycle and it is the first step in assessing ones fertility. Normally the lower the number the better, anything over 10 is usually a reason for concern.
One thing I have to remember is this is a marathon, slow and steady, not a sprint to the finish line.

I did have a mini break down on my way from the doctors office to my office, I was driving and all of a sudden the tears just started flowing. I do feel better after I cry, so that is the upside. Everyone tells me to be positve and optimistic, but it's a lot harder then it sounds. But I take their advice and put on a smiling face and block out the negative thoughts!

Here we go, we are so ready, this has been 2 1/2 years in the making!