Our dog's praying for us!

The dog in this photo is the spitting image of our beloved dog Daisy and currently acting as our only child. I bet she prays for us like this when we aren't looking. Could you pray for us too?

Mixed Emotions

results, Tomorrow is Shannon's laparoscopic surgery. Seems to be a fairly simple procedure and the people I know who have had it say it isn't that bad. No matter how simple it really is it's still surgery.

Any time you have to be put unconscious for something worries me somewhat. So, I do have some concerns about the whole thing as well as looking forward to it in some ways.

Again using anesthesia can be dangerous and couldn't bear for anything bad to happen to Shannon. Also, the people I have talk to say there is some discomfort afterwards so I feel bad for her. My sweetie is a trooper and I thank her for all she has had to go through.

I also don't know how to take the results. On one hand there may be nothing wrong at all. No Endometriosis, no cysts, no nothing. Which could be a could thing and we'll know that there is non-toxic environment in there.

On the other hand I want to know something is wrong so that at least we can fix it and move on. Right now we perfectly fine and simply experiencing unexplained infertility. Maybe if we find something wrong that we can't it can be corrected and it will be smooth sailing from there.

For those of you who read our posts please pray for us. For Shannon's safety as well as us having a baby one day. Thank you!

Inspirational Quote of Hope December 27, 2008

"He, who has health, has hope; and he who has hope has everything."- Arabian Proverb

Inspirational Quote of Hope December 26, 2008

"Every life is a profession of faith and exercises an inevitable and silent influence."- Henri Frederic Amiel

Inspirational Quote of Hope December 25, 2008

"Faith is an invisible and invincible magnet, and attracts to itself whatever it fervently desires and calmly and persistently expects."- Ralph Waldo Trine

Inspirational Quote of Hope December 19, 2008

"Hope itself a species of happiness and, the one unchangeable certainty is nothing is certain or unchangeable.- John Fitzgerald Kennedy

Inspirational Quote of Hope December 12, 2008

"The man who wins may have been counted out several times, but he didn't hear the referee. Never quit or give up...never...give up."- H.E. Janson

Inspirational Quote of Hope December 11, 2008

"Never give in, never give in, never; never; never; never- in nothing, great or small, large or petty- never give in except to convictions of honor and good sense."- Winston Churchill

Inspirational Quote of Hope December 10, 2008

"Never give up, for that is just the place and time when the tide will turn."- Harriet Beecher Stowe

Glimmer of Light...Turns to Dark

Shannon has had an extremely bad cycle this month, which worried me so much, almost seems like she was hemorrhaging. She called the doctor this morning since things have been less than normal and the doctor thought maybe, just maybe at least one of the eggs took. I had a glimmer of hope after this that maybe I would be Dad after all. The thoughts of being Dad ran through my head all day as I looked forward to the possibility. But unfortunately after Shannon doctors visit and another blood test it looks like things are negative.

It feels good to have a glimmer of hope every now and then. Maybe we were pregnant and things didn't quite work out. So the glimmer of light has turned to darkness again. The funny thing today though, I received email from old friend with a message that said. " God has seen you suffering and he says it over. You will be blessed." I also had someone tell me today that God knows you are good person and you are going to be rewarded. And then I received a friend request on Myspace from Jesus. Of course it was Spanish pronunciation of the name, but still it seemed like a sign to me that one day everything was going to work out. Maybe soon.

Inspirational Quote of Hope December 9, 2008

"Just don't give up trying to do what you really want to do."- Ella Fitzgerald

Inspirational Quote of Hope December 8, 2008

"Never give up, Never give in, and when the upper hand is ours, may we have the ability to handle the win with the dignity that we absorbed the loss."- Doug Williams

Inspirational Quote of Hope December 7, 2008

"Never let your head hang down. NEVER GIVE UP AND SIT DOWN AND GRIEVE. Find another way."- Satchel Paige

WHY?! WHY?! WHY?! WHY?!

WHY! That's all I want to know. Today started great. I knew in a couple of days we would know if we were pregnant. Today Shannon and I had lunch at Zaba's at it was packed. Full families and kids everywhere. Shannon began to get upset seeing all children and I knew she was wishing we were there with one of our own. She calmed down and I thought for sure this time would be the time. We would know we were pregnant in just a couple of days.

Tonight we went to a Christmas party and there were lots of children. Mainly girls, which is what would like, but at this point we would take either sex. All the girls were dancing and having a great time. I pictured a daughter of our own dancing and laughing with the other girls. I knew one day that would become a reality.

Upon coming home Shannon began her period. So again another failed attempt at IUI. Time and time again I ask WHY?! Please God bring us a baby!

Inspirational Quote of Hope December 5, 2008

"I find your lack of faith disturbing." Darth Vader

Inspirational Quote of Hope December 4, 2008

"Our imagination is the only limit to what we can hope to have in the future."- Charles F Kettering

Inspirational Quote of Hope December 2, 2008

"Beware how you take away hope from any human being."- Oliver Wendell Holmes

Tis the season!

Well, last night we put up our Christmas tree and I got a good start on putting up the holiday decorations around the house. I love this time year, I have always been a XMAS nut! The more decorations the better. This year its kinda bitter sweet, we just celebrated Thanksgiving with John's family, who all have kids, we have kids ranging from 9 years old to 6 months old in our family. Its very true that kids make the holidays better. I hope and pray that this is our last holiday's with just us, I would have to have a newborn next year at this time, I would even take just being pregnant around the holidays next year. I just do not know how much more my heart can take.
I am trying to not let it comsume me, but its hard, I feel like getting pregnant would take a huge weight off my shoulders, I really forget what its like to not be worried about this.

All the Things We Go Through Facing Infertiltiy...

This video describes so much how Shannon and I feel and the things we go through on a daily basis. Everybody we know who is experiencing the same issue of infertility seems to have the same feelings and emotional ups and downs like we do. I pray one day no one will ever have to go through what we have had to endure ever. I know there are a lot of people going through some hard times right now and we pray for them as well, but for us at the moment this is our hard time.

Inspirational Quote of Hope November 30, 2008

"Hope for the best but prepare for the worst."- English Proverb